"All of me, loves all of you."
I heard this song a few months ago thanks to our friend Gary, and I knew that I'd have to cover it. Asked Tony T if he'd be down and it finally got put together! The song itself is simple, honest, and true. Being a wife and living that forever kind of love, I know a song is a good love song if it encompasses the ins & outs of what marriage is like. Singing songs before, I'd have to muster up old pieces and memories of my life so I could emote the tone of the lyrics. Now, it all just rings true.
I've been pretty sick the past few weeks - a cold I haven't felt in.. I don't know when. The snots were oozing, sleeping was difficult, and breathing became a luxury. That's when hubby Joules was my angel and showed me some TLC (tender, love, & care)
John is naturally the type to look out for others so it wasn't like I was surprised that he'd be so good to me, but I felt like he went above & beyond my expectations. I just had no expectations because I wasn't used to being cared for this way. Even when I was in Korea a year ago, my dad would maybe take me to the doctor's once and leave me in my room to fight the war on my own. John risked his health (he still gave me kisses!) to be close to me & take care of his wife.
Here are a few things I want to take note of forever:
- He took our pup Toby out in the morning practically everyday the past couple of weeks :')
Things like this excite me for our future with babies. He's gonna be the best dad ever.
- He dropped me off chicken noodle soup/lunch & medicine at work.
- He bought me flowers to come home to
- He made sure I had nose strips so that I could sleep better at night (Please note my nose isn't actually that large.. nose strips create a bigger passage for your nostrils!)
- He fed me water & vitamin C every morning
- He dropped me off at work even though it's only a 5 minute walk because it was raining and/or dark
- He cooked me chicken 죽 (jeuk)/rice porridge & it was so good!
.. these are just a few things he's done for me during my sickness.
I'm still not a 100% better but we got a Vick's humidifier so I'm praying this will all go away.
Basically, I wanted to write this blog entry to share with you what this cover song meant to us and to say thank you to Joules for loving on me even though sometimes I frustrate him, let him down, & possibly cramp his style. We've come a long way in the short while we've known each other but I'm happy to say that as the days pass, there's more confirmation on why God brought us together.
To the readers, I don't want you to be misled. Our marriage is not perfect. Sometimes we really really piss each other off or upset each other. But what can we expect when two sinners come together and try to become one? It is far from easy, but it challenges you making you better, stronger, and happier; every solid relationship you have, be it family, friend, or lover, should do this.
I find myself wondering how in the world someone like John was able to fall in love with me and devote his life to me. This parallels with my wonderment on how a God like Jesus was able to fall in love with me and give up His life for me.
I am simply blessed & grace is completely present in my life.
I find myself also "giving up" things such as the last word in an argument we have because it ultimately isn't about who's right & who's wrong but what is right and what is wrong - things we can only really learn from the Word.
There is no way we can control each other but we love the best we can and pray that God will stretch our hearts & reveal what is true.
John & I acknowledge the fact that we will let each other down. It'll be hard on our own, but we always keep it in our prayers that God will be our rock - our solid foundation. I pray that all of you find a love that is everlasting <3