lack of inspiration
I have to be honest. I feel like the past... year I've been listening to music just for the heck of it. There's been plenty of catchy songs, but not a lot of songs that have tugged at my heartstrings. When I hear a good song, I'm reminded of the power of instruments and lyrics. Storytelling is a gift. Not everyone can draw a picture with words and musical notes well. It's a craft that I've been failing to work on. Sometimes the thoughts of my ambitions get the best of me. I want to sing, I want to get fit, I want to act, I want to be a good wife, I want to be a good friend, I want to have nice things, I want to eat good food, I want to be a good (dog) parent to Toby. I want to do it all, I ask myself if I can do it all, but I don't try at all. I may pick up something to start the course but get lose in the magnitude of my own pressure and lacking. There's a spark but it gets dim and dies out. Little things start it again, but what will keep it going?
Jazmine Sullivan - Forever Don't Last
Mary J. Blige - Whole Damn Year
Reader, take the time to listen to these two songs. They're special.