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The decision to love and no more than love.

You are selfish.You are wrong. You are not good.

You are offended.

Why are you offended?

Sit on that and think about it.

This is to challenge others as well as myself.

When was the last time you re-evaluated your life and your actions (or lack of actions) towards others?

One of the biggest things about marriage is that you learn so much about yourself as well as the other because you are constantly and consistently with someone who experiences your every fiber. The good, and the horrifically bad. Imagine them standing in front of you holding a mirror in front of you, and you to that person. They catch you at every angle - the good side and the bad side. You help each other see how the other person perceives you and the perspective in which they stand. Do you like what you see? I know it's easy to say you don't like what you see in the other person, but do you like what you see about yourself?

God has always spoken to me throughout my life. He's orchestrated things so beautifully to point back to Him, but the concept of Jesus dying on the cross for me to give me another chance is still a lot to take in. Our sins are repetitive and it is impossible to be perfect, but still Jesus' blood cleanses that every. single. time. 

I feel wronged by people sometimes; people I consider(ed) close friends or family. I get hurt by them. I get overly neurotic and sensitive and I try to over compensate & replay scenarios in my head. I try and devise a way to feel "complete" again by having the balance of our friendship back to where I think it should be. When the heart of the matter isn't reciprocated, I crumble - usually.

But I have decided that I will just love the best I can and do no more than love. I will practice patience, kindness, not to be envious, not to be boastful, not to be proud, not to be dishonorable, not to be self-seeking, not to be easily angered, KEEP NO RECORD OF WRONGS (that's a toughie.. friends know I tend to never forget ;) ).. always protect, trust, hope, persevere...  Meaning: 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 does not just apply to your spouse. IT IS THE LOVE that God intends for everyone.

Verse 8 has to be my favorite: "Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away."

We will fail miserably in this world, but we might as well try. Try to be better. Try to forgive. Try to forget. Try to be kind. Try to trust. Try to persevere.

Sprinkle some of the goodness that has been poured upon you so that someone else can experience grace however big or small.

I just about lost it.

*A hidden camera taken into a restaurant in Texas. [vsw id="5JibZ2U3o-M" source="youtube" width="425" height="344" autoplay="no"] Just at about 3:39 I started bawling.

It's so important to love everyone.

Staying silent will only cause more pain. I think the hardest part is finding the balance of being able to "kill with kindness" yet stand your ground trying to get your point across no matter how malicious someone is being.

"I won't need that where I'm going."

iPad or Kindle HD? Hypothetically, if I had the money to, or if I decided I really wanted to invest in one, which one should I get?

I am in no means about to buy one. I just like asking questions. Honest. I'm weird. It's like when I go online shopping, I put a bunch of stuff in my cart after spending a tremendous (a tremendously unnecessary) amount of time browsing and exit out of it. It's cathartic to me. Strange? I know.

Of course there are times I like to splurge; and that's only if I know I have the money to pay for it, not just rack it on my credit card. It's programmed in me to naturally not want to spend money consistently on clothing and things in general (except food. That's a whole different topic.) Truth be told, I never got allowances growing up. My mom was a single parent dance teacher and a lot of what we did was save money just so we could pay the bills for our one bedroom apartment that me, my mom, and brother lived in and our minivan. Even though I'm Korean, I never got "lucky money"/"New Year's Money". The one time I did get "New Year's Money" was when I visited my friend Claire and her family insisted I did the traditional bow to their grandma. It was seriously one of the strangest and sweetest experiences in my life. Thank you, Claire. I freaking love your fambam.

My mom pretty much shopped for me (ain't no shame in that, my mom is very stylish) until I started working when I was 16. But even then, I'd much rather spend money on going out to the movies with friends when I could or just having meals out.

My junior year when I went to prom, I remember my mom opened up a credit card just so I could get a prom dress. I think the prom dress was a little under $200. Even at that moment, I felt bad and burdensome to my mom, but she wanted to do that for me. I loved that dress so much and it meant more to me knowing what my mom had to do get it for me. I know I'd do the same for my daughter when the time came.

During a church sermon recently, I was reminded by a quote "I won't need that where I'm going." The message was to reiterate to us the importance of giving and being selfless with our belongings. To remember that what we have now, all that is physical, isn't needed in heaven. All those other things will perish. It isn't to say that we shouldn't enjoy the blessings God has given to us, but it should open up our hearts to others and give when we're called to. Even when we give, we shouldn't feel like it's an awful obligation and that our hands are tied against our backs in doing so. We should give knowing that "there's plenty where that came from" and all of it comes from God.