Because you are precious in My sight and honored, and because I love you, I will give men in return for you and peoples in exchange for your life. Fear not, for I am with you. - Isaiah 43:4-5 It's tough to remember that we are cared for. I was able to purchase this devotional book and reference the whole chapter of Isaiah easily through my laptop via biblegateway.com Sure, I purchased the book and laptop with my own money since I worked for it, but I was blessed with a job. Yes, I got the job(s) by building up my resume and passing interviews, but I was given a voice as well as a drive for hard work that was instilled in me at a very young age.
My family moved to America when I was just over a year old and I was the translator for my mom. I had to learn how to communicate both in Korean and English to my peers and adults. I continued to take care of a lot of things on my own because I didn't want anything to get lost in translation. I always felt like I had to go above and beyond even in elementary school just so I could keep up with the other American students and their regular American families. I didn't know God then, but I always asked Him why life had to be so complicated and uncomfortable.
Facing my past with where I am in the present now, I recognize that God was only preparing me so I could be comfortable;
..comfortable in the sense that I can communicate my story in more than one language without having to take out the dictionary
..comfortable in the sense that I know that because I received my college degree I have more options. (not to say those who didn't attend college don't, I know many people who do very well but other opportunities like graduate school, etc.) At one point I didn't know if I could even afford college but who knew being really poor meant you get more financial aid!!!!!
..comfortable in the sense that with all the relationships I've built up to this point, no matter how bad things got, I can confidently say that my friends and family would never have me on the streets starving and lost.
This is the truth for many of us. This is love.
Now, I wouldn't know what being truly comfortable was without those uncomfortable moments. Life isn't perfect now, but it is very good depending on how I want to look at it. I am far from being done with all the things I want to accomplish before I croak, but I am in a good place and I really pray that I will stay on track no matter what rocks or hurdles are thrown my way.
If you're going through something rough, do not fear, remember you are loved, and taken care of. You read this off of your cellphone, tablet, computer, or laptop after all :) You've got it better than you realize.